"You can only be chased by the past if you are running from it."

Have you ever heard that the act of running from a dog actually invites it to chase you, whether or not it was initially the dog’s plan to? The fast and spontaneous nature of your feet whisking your body away becomes an invitation to the dog to play, since chasing is what they love to do most. This is a great analogy for past trauma, or rather, understanding how some unpleasant memories continue to find us long after we have chosen to leave them behind. I’d like to say more about this, but let me paint a scenario for you first.

You are at a party and someone in a circle of people you are talking with is on their second glass of wine and has now become more comfortable speaking from their emotional place. They start to talk about a bad break up that began a long and pretty severe period of depression for them. Alert! Your own trauma has been accessed by an intruder! The already fragile door to your trauma flies open with an invitation to come out and play and there in all its glory is that devastating break up you never got over. The fear of it becomes so intense that you don’t wait for an appropriate pause in the person’s story to excuse yourself, but turn and make a bee-line toward the table of appetizers. But I will wager that what you are hungry for most will not be found on a platter of Goat Cheese and Tomato Tart with Crudite.

What would happen if you responded to your fear of the dog by standing still? What would happen if you responded to the fear of your own memory at the party by remaining in place and listening? Your answer to these will likely be dipped in years of fantasy responses, so many times that you can’t really see for sure what the reality is. Ya know, I have always said there is a reason why trauma and drama sound so much alike. I don’t mean to make light of trauma here, or underscore its impact, but its worth looking at a different way if you have not had success up to now.

Try this for a second. The dog walks up to you. You don’t move. He sniffs your leg, then your foot, then looks up at you. He then sits and offers his paw. With apprehension, you extend your hand and a paw lands on it. A new friendship is made. A myth is uncovered. An old demon is dismantled.

How about this one? You stay and listen to the woman’s story of her breakup and put your hand on her arm and offer a gesture of kindness and empathy, telling her it will be OK because you have survived a similar situation. She smiles and accepts your gesture and 2 people’s hearts receive a few more stitches.

To stand still, calmly and patiently, in the center of your fear, with compassion for yourself, is to be willing to have a new response. To be willing to have a new response is to find one. To find one is to unload the burden. To unload the burden is to feel free and accomplished. To feel free and accomplished is to feel good. To feel good is to enjoy your life. To enjoy your life is what you are meant to do! I encourage you to tap into the place your courage is stored and to let the past, the demon, the dog, the story, the trauma find you. To look it in the eye is to strip it of its power. The lesson here is quite ironic, for you will never get as far running as you will standing still.